Ohmygod! We did it!
Today officially marks the final day of our Expedition.
Honestly, I feel such a sense of relief right now. It has been a fairly grueling Expedition for me and I am very, very happy to be bringing it to a close today.
Grueling, yes. Challenging, yes.
Totally worth the effort? Absolutely.
Yesterday I wrote a bit about how my flailing varied from my original intentions.
Today, I want to share some of the insights I gathered along the way with particular attention to my chosen theme for these 40 days.
First, a recap: in this post I talk about how little conscious attention I was giving my theme. Then, just over a week ago, I wrote about how insights and clues are finding their way to me anyway.
This past week has continued that trend, with more and more understandings about myself and how I relate to my work and my life emerging.
And, it is now clear that I’m not truly in need of or seeking a vision for my life and work. I already have it. I know what it is. I carry it in my heart.
What is needed is for me to trust the vision that I do have.
I’ve been floundering, feeling lost, and craving some super concrete, clear, detailed path to follow – both for my business and my life.
What I finally realized, nearly 40 full days into the Expedition, is that all of my floundering, feeling lost, and desperately seeking a Vision (or a path or a goal or whatever you want to call it) is this:
All of that floundering was simply a distraction from actually following what feels right in my heart and in my body.
As long as I allowed myself to believe I didn’t know what my next step was, I didn’t have to take it.
I was safe. I didn’t have to venture out in the unknown, take any risks, or do the new, more challenging things life is asking of me now.
So, here I am now, at the end of this Expedition, basically where I began.
Only now, I have deeper trust in my own instincts.
And now, hopefully, I will be able to actually take the steps that are before me vs pretending I don’t see them and searching for something else.
I think that is all I want to say about that.
Before I go, though, I have a thought about upcoming Expeditions and a question or two for you as well.
40 days is a LONG time. I like Expeditions of this length because they do require a LOT of focus and commitment and those are two things that seem very important to cultivate to me.
However, leading these Expeditions requires a lot of time and energy from me – especially if I am posting daily.
And, it seems that people drop off pretty quickly after the first couple of weeks which can make things feel a bit lonely.
**Thanks so much to Beth and Kalyani for visibly – through the comments – sticking it out with me through the entire Expedition. You rock!**
Therefore, I’d like to give a mini-expedition (10 days perhaps) a try next – most likely in the fall.
I’m curious what might happen if we commit to a shorter version of this Expedition.
My questions for you:
1) I’d love to hear how your 40 days went. How long did you continue? What came up for you? How did your theme influence and guide your Expedition?
2) Was it helpful having me post daily? Any suggestions or changes that would be more inspiring and supportive for you?
3) Do you think a shorter Expedition would be beneficial for you?
To all of you participating whether actively or passively, thank you! I so loved reading your comments and hearing about your experiences on this Expedition.
Truly, knowing you were out there flailing and/or reading is what made it possible for me make it through these 40 days.
And now, I can’t wait to do it again!!!