I’ve mentioned a couple of times that my theme for this Expedition is Commitment. Today, I want to talk very briefly about how I’m approaching this theme so far.
For one, being on this Expedition is a commitment in and of itself.
So, I’m noticing how I feel and what is coming up for me as this Expedition progresses. Taking note of, for instance, all the freaking out that happened on Day 1 and how the 3 days since Day 1 have felt remarkably calm.
Also, my intent is to journal briefly every day using the prompt:
Commitment is…
And just notice where my mind takes me. Today I wrote:
commitment is scary. equivalent to being trapped. easy (if you love the thing or person you are making the commitment to). like breathing. natural. like a sunflower turning to face the sun as the sun travels across the sky.
And THEN, I dove into some really meaty stuff about what commitment means to me and a not-very-helpful pattern I have around commitment. 800 words later I saved my entry (on 750words.com)… only to discover, right now, that all of it is gone other than the bit above. What?!
Perhaps that pattern has now shifted. 
*crosses fingers*
So, today is Day 4. How does Day 4 find you? How are you approaching your chosen theme?
I failed to flail yesterday.
But, since my theme is loosely “get back into the swing of things”, I’m not chastising me-from-yesterday for not doing this thing, but getting other things done instead. Still sick = limited energy reserves. I’ll check back in once I’ve returned from the wilds today!
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I’ve recently been mulling on the fail-flail similarity, trying to come up with a catchy slogan for Shiva Nata. All I can come up with is “Fail is just Flail without an L” ….which doesn’t make any sense…LOL. “Flail is failing with an extra L”??
Take care of yourself, chica!
Day 4?! How did this happen? I totally forgot about the challenge until right this minute. Then I considered not doing it at all. Then I decided that was a pattern. Then I did it in my head, at my desk. Then I got frustrated, because I couldn’t remember the positions/numbers when my arms were going opposite directions in L1. Then I decided to write it out. Then it felt like math, which sucked, but then it was slightly less infuriating.
I’m not usually this jumbled, but I find that Shiva Nata is the perfect opportunity to not be how I usually am. I still don’t have a focus for the 40 days. But when I was writing afterward just now, it came up that I find it incredibly annoying to have unresolved things (things in tension) in my life. Maybe it’s time to explore that. Because, you know, it’s life: it will never be “resolved”.
Welcome, Kylie! Yay! I’m so happy you decided to join in even though it’s not Day 1. That rocks.
Day 3 of 40? http://shivanataroundtable.wordpress.com/2011/11/03/day-3-of-40/
Day 4: I love you http://shivanataroundtable.wordpress.com/2011/11/04/day-4-i-love-you/
Heya
Totally loving your entries… I committed to posting here a minimum of twice a week. You are inspiring much more in me. Thank you for that.
Yesterday, I continued on with the L6 stuff from day 2 and then my brain fell asleep (as did I).
Today, I switched between that pattern while jumping on the rebounder and that pattern on the floor and a fast L2 teaching and a L3 normally. And then I taught L1 to a friend using qualities. Apparently my brain was more confused than I thought because I kept getting the pattern wrong, and I couldn’t do qualities for the verticals because my brain was too scrambled. Haha. Also, yay.
Woa. Now THAT’s a lot of flailing. Awesome.
*takes a deep breath*
(whispers) As part of my 40-days, I have started a new, tiny, sweet thing. I have started to blog at http://www.crankyshivanaut.com (ducks head and runs away).
Congratulations!!! Super, super happy for you and your new tiny sweet thing. And, I totally adore your Helpful Inner Persona photos. What a great way to acknowledge your Inner Allies.
Woo hoo – you GO girl!
Hi Jenny’s monsters: yes, there are people who love Jenny and will read her new blog. But we are loving and gentle and understanding, so you don’t have to worry about protecting her by blocking or censoring what she writes. It’s safe, I promise!
Hi Jenny: You continue to amaze and inspire me. Thank you for sharing your days of this expedition!
Thank you
XOXO