Yesterday I said that I would start the wrap-up of the Expedition today.
Let’s get started!
Overall, this Expedition took a pretty surprising and unexpected twist for me. I’ll tell you all about it in a minute.
First, a review of my intention:
My intention for these 40 days was to flail for a minimum of 5 minutes a day every day and to spend 5+ minutes free-writing after 4 or 5 of those practices sessions every week.
Simple, right?
On top of that, for this Expedition, I committed to posting here every day of the 40 days as well.
Did I follow through on these intention/commitments?
Um… no, no, and yes.
Interestingly (for me) I had a very lackluster Expedition as far as the actual flailing piece goes. Most of my Shiva Nata sessions were quite short (less than 10 minutes) AND I likely only flailed 25-30 days total of the Expedition.
In the past two Expeditions, I flailed upwards of 35+ days out of the 40.
That’s a pretty big change.
This difference is due in large part to me following through on my commitment to post here every day.
I did that!
I posted here EVERY DAY for 40 DAYS… assuming I do post tomorrow, of course. 
I cannot even begin to tell you how big of a deal that is for me.
I’ve never posted more that TWO days in a row before. Forty is a lot more than two.
At one point, in the comments, I mentioned how my brain was confusing posting here with my actual Shiva Nata practice…
…in that I was posting here daily in lieu of practicing and then feeling as if I had flailed for the day.
I have this sense that posting here daily, supporting the Expedition in this way, was actually having a similar effect on my brain as doing actual Shiva Nata.
A new pattern was definitely being created.
New habits were being formed. Old patterns and habits destroyed. And, I learned so much about myself through this process of posting daily (more on that tomorrow).
In any case, the posting daily for 40 days became more the focus of my Expedition than the actual flailing itself. I’m ok with that.
Perhaps in future Expeditions, I’ll be able to more readily do both at the same time.
For me, that would represent a fairly huge breakthrough.
Ok, that’s my overall practice reflection.
Tomorrow, I’ll talk a bit about what I learned regarding Vision (my theme) thanks to this Expedition.
Plus, I’ll give you my new Vision for future Expeditions.
For now, for you…
…how did your actual Expedition progress compared to the intentions and commitments you set 39 days ago?
And, how do you intend to wrap up your Expedition and transition back into daily life (with or without daily Shiva Nata)?
I am very late to the reading of your Expedition, which Kalyani alerted me to! I have been on a shiva nata tear lately, so I appreciate these posts and the insights. Writing works for me this way too and is an important part of my practices; I often come out with something unexpected (OH! So THAT’s what that’s all about!) – I think any practices that put us in back in relationship with ourselves & the present moment do this to some extent and it is so fascinating!
I look forward to reading about what you’ve learned, thank you for sharing your expedition!
Yes, yes, yes to this: “i think any practices that put us back in relationship with ourselves and the present moment do this to some extent”. So well put and my belief/experience as well.
I know how big of a deal that is for you! Cheering!
Thank you. Thank you.
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I’m starting to feel the closure a little bit, and this post helped to move it forward. Thanks, Larisa!
Fantastic!
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